Saturday, July 12, 2008

Life in Adelaide (Part 2~)

Time is really flying. I have just completed one sem and my final sem in Adelaide is coming soon. I reckon I am really going to miss here. I have done something over here where i would never think of doing it in my life. Those things are walking to Coles from my house with friends and housemates in the middle of night as an "exercise". Secondly, walked back from City to Magill (My house) with friends, which would take approximately 15 minutes of driving distance, which in turn took us about nearly 2 hours (1 hour 40 minutes if not mistaken) of walking distance. Anyway, i think this is really a breakthrough for me. Sometimes it is good to explore around and not to restrict ourselves in a "box". The other thing which i am glad about myself is that i m able to cook some new dishes and have gained some new cooking experiences which would be definitely helpful for me in the future.

Recently get to watch Hancock, Narnia and Kung Fu Panda. I love one of the quotes in Kung Fu panda, it did inspire me. It reminds me that Faith is very important as something would seem to be special if we believe that it is special. One's belief is crucial in influencing how the things turn out as it affects how we perceive the thing. I am working on it now, working hard to eliminate my "distorted" belief currently. Really need a strong willpower mannn....Don't understand why, the feelings of loneliness suddenly struck me recently again. Just wondering why we will tend to go after something which we have not own, but sometimes will tend to neglect something good which we have already owned. At this stage, I have something which i am really looking forward to as i have not really truly experience it for the whole of my 20 years of life. According to Erikson's psychosocial stages, i believe that i am currently at the stage of intimacy vs isolation. As so far i hv not been in any relationship nor have the reciprocal liking from the one I like, I feel a sense of loneliness within myself. I know this kind of feelings is going to bother me till i really so fortunate to receive reciprocal liking one day. Why am i always fall for someone who would never like me or have very low possibility of reciprocate my likes towards them??? This question has been bothered me for long. Is time to get rid of it now, will try hard no matter how hard it could be. It is really an unbearable feeling for me. Now, i would put no expectation in this matter, therefore i guess i would not have disappointment in this matter....Grace, don't think about it..Stop thinking about getting into relationshipsss now...Let's focus on the issues which I should focus on...I can do it^_6